I will offer my lust in sevā to Kṛṣṇa. I will use my anger against the enemies of the devotees. I will utilize my greed by always being eager to hear the topics of Lord Hari in the association of the pure devotees. I will become bewildered in separation from my Lord, due to excessive attachment for Him. I will become mad and intoxicated when glorifying Kṛṣṇa’s qualities. In this way I will engage all of these in the service of the Lord. txt.10
“How can I use these six enemies of mine? Kṛṣṇa-sevā kāmārpane—I must use my drive of desire for God’s service. Any work done for one’s own sake is called kāma. Kāma is the drive to fulfill one’s own desires. But if all my desires are for Kṛṣṇa, then this is called sevā or service.
ātmendriya-prīti-vāñchā—tāre bali ‘kāma’
kṛṣṇendriya-prīti-icchā dhare ‘prema’ nāma
Caitanya-caritāmṛta, Ādi-līlā 4.165
The desire to please one’s own senses is called kāma, lust, but to want to satisfy the senses of Śrī Kṛṣṇa is known as prema, love.
Endeavor for the purpose of Kṛṣṇa’s happiness is called prema not kāma. Endeavor for personal enjoyment is called kāma.
The two may externally appear similar, but they are not the same at all. Both Gaṅgā water and sewer water flow in a stream, but they are not the same. They are not of the same qualities.
Desire for Kṛṣṇa’s happiness and service and the cultivation of action for this cause is called prema and it is niṣkalaṅka, or perfectly clean and spotless. Then there is no problem. Then you will be elevated step by step. But if you do anything for your own self, then you will tumble down this staircase and fall into the well of hell, from which you will be unable to come out. You will move about and only suffer in that hell.
Kṛṣṇa said to Uddhava:
śraddhālur mat-kathāḥ śṛṇvan su-bhadrā loka-pāvanīḥ
gāyann anusmaran karma janma cābhinayan muhuḥ
mad-arthe dharma-kāmārthān ācaran mad-apāśrayaḥ
labhate niścalāṁ bhaktiṁ mayy uddhava sanātane
O Uddhava, topics of My pastimes and attributes are all-auspicious and sanctify the whole world. A faithful soul, who always hears, glorifies and remembers My transcendental activities, who relives My pastimes by performing dramas, beginning with My birth, and who fully surrenders unto Me, dedicating his dharma, wealth, and desires for My satisfaction, certainly achieves unflinching devotional service unto Me, the Eternal Personality.” Kṛṣṇa says, “If anyone takes My shelter, and they have love for Me, then the desire for any other attainment does not interest them. Their jaḍa-kāmana will be finished.
sakṛd yad darśitaṁ rūpam etat kāmāya te ‘nagha
mat-kāmaḥ śanakaiḥ sādhu sarvān muñcati hṛc-chayān
The Lord spoke to Nārada, “O pure one, you have only once seen Me in person, and this is just to increase your hankering for Me, because the more you desire to attain Me, the more you will be freed from all mundane desires.”
The sādhus take me into their heart and do everything for me. If he has any dirtiness left in him, if he has any enemies who come to disturb him, or if he feels any sort of pain, I cannot tolerate it. Therefore I purify their heart and make them very strong and sweet. They will be very humble and no longer disturbed by anger, lust or any other enemy.”
The sādhus have no jealousy. They will not insult any bhakta. If anyone speaks harshly to them they will tolerate. They will have patience. Such a person is never disturbed or hopeless. He will always busy himself in service and in the pursuit of self-realization. His service will run. What service? Śravaṇam, kīrtanam, smaraṇam, pāda-sevanam. This will be non-stop and continuously flowing.
Prajāpati Dakṣa disrespected Lord Śiva with many rude words and verbal abuses. But Śiva Ṭhākura did not lose his bhakti, or bhajana. He did not accept this. If person has bad qualities and distributes that everywhere, a good, honest person will not accept those things.
If a person brings a pile of fresh stool to another person and requests him to accept it then he will be entirely uninterested and disgusted. But if that stool was brought to pigs and piglets then they would be very happy.
Now think about this. Are we pigs and piglets? Are we dogs and hogs? Or are we humans, men, and women? Are you a gentleman? If you are a gentleman, then why do you accept any other person’s faults or the complaints of a faultfinder? This is offered to you on a plate. Oh, how sweet and tasteful! Now, when this is offered to me, I quickly take it and immediately distribute it to others. I will be an agent of this.
One time, when Mahāprabhu was in South India, as He went from place to place delivering everyone with harināma-saṅkīrtana, he met a group of Buddhist monks. They saw Mahāprabhu doing kīrtana with thousands of people following Him, and became very disturbed. They brought a big plate of meat and many other preparations to Mahāprabhu.
“You are a sannyāsī. Please take this prasādam.”
Mahāprabhu was absorbed in nāma-sankirtanam and did not take notice. Suddenly a huge eagle came and snatched the plate from the hands of the Buddhists. The eagle flew high into the air and then dropped the plate on the head of the leader of the Buddhists. The head of the leader was severely cut and he fell on the ground senseless.
The monks addressed Mahāpabhu in great distress. “Please Prabhu! Kindly forgive him and save his life. He is our guru.”
Then what did Mahāprabhu say?
“Yes. All of you, start harināma-saṅkīrtana!” Then tumultuous saṅkīrtana was started with cries of ‘haribol’ and the mahāmantra. By their chanting, the Buddhist leader returned to consciousness. He also began to dance and do nāma-saṅkīrtana.
Now the problem is that so easily, without consideration and without a fee I enthusiastically accept, when offered, the blame and complaints—the sins, offenses, and guilt of others, distributed as if it were a feast on a plate. I quickly take this, thinking, “Ah, how nice.”
This is pig nature. Then I become an agent or distributor myself. “Do you know? Did you hear? Last night this sannyāsī was with a lady. Did you hear about this?”
“Aah, such sweet things. You bring very good news.”
Therefore, what did Ṛṣabhadeva do? He would pass stool and smear it all over his body. Devahūti, the mother of Kapiladeva, did the same. Then no one came near to disturb them.
If you announce that you are bogus and stupid, then no one will come near you. If you say even a little bit that you are good, saying, “I am a follower of Guru, Vaiṣṇavas, and their books and hari-kathā,” then everyone will criticize you.
“He is a nonsense. He is stupid. He was nobody and his guru made him a little qualified. Now he boasts that he is ācārya and guru.” People will say many things.
Vaiṣṇavas never accept this blaming and fault finding. Śiva Ṭhākura never heard Dakṣa’s insults. Dakṣa had jealousy, therefore he insulted Śiva Ṭhākura, who himself had no faults.
Anyone who always blames, insults, and criticizes others is the real possessor of bad qualities. They cannot cross māyā. They cannot see past tama, raja, and sattva. They cannot stay in a nirguṇa place.
What does Satī-devī say?
karṇau pidhāya nirayād yad akalpa īśe
dharmāvitary asṛṇibhir nṛbhir asyamāne
chindyāt prasahya ruśatīm asatīṁ prabhuś cej
jihvām asūn api tato visṛjet sa dharmaḥ
Satī spoke: “If one listens to an irresponsible person criticize the master and controller of dharma, one should close his ears and go far away if unable to correct or chastise him. But if one is able to shed blood, then one should by force cut out such a blasphemer’s tongue and kill him for he is an offender, and then after that, one should give up his own life.”
If one hears another criticize a protector of dharma, then immediately he should cut out that person’s tongue or give up one’s own life. Otherwise, covering his ears, he should quickly leave that place and not accept the blasphemy. If he has the power, he should stop the evildoer.
If you lack the sufficient power, then go from there, remember God, do harināma, fast, and bathe in the Gaṅgā or Yamunā. Then you will be purified. Otherwise there will be a big problem for your spiritual life.
Lobha, should be for sādhu-saṅga and hari-kathā, not for any mundane things. Lobha means greediness or lālasā. If I have lobha for material things, then I will be sick. If the sādhaka is greedy 161
for hari-kathā and sādhu-saṅga, then automatically hunger, thirst, and any other desire-fire, as well as moha, will vanish.
Hearing hari-kathā from great devotees will cause prema-bhakti to arise in the heart. Then the fires of lust, anger, and family relations will be finished. How is this?
Devarṣi Nārada told King Prācīnabarhi:
tasmin mahan-mukharitā madhu-bhic-caritra-
pīyūṣa-śeṣa-saritaḥ paritaḥ sravanti
tā ye pibanty avitṛṣo nṛpa gāḍha-karṇais
tān na spṛśanty aśana-tṛḍ-bhaya-śoka-mohāḥ
In assemblies of saintly persons, unlimited torrents of pure ambrosia emanate from the mouths of great souls in the form of narrations of Kṛṣṇa’s character, pastimes and qualities. Those who are never content when drinking these nectarean glories through the cups of their thirsty ears, can never be affected by hunger, thirst, fear, grief, delusion, and other unwanted attachments.
Hearing and absorbing the mind on thoughts of Hari, in association with sādhus, one will surely achieve prema-bhakti. Only harikathā is helpful. Anything else only comes inside and burns. Like if one gives acid or another sort of harsh chemical to the body, it will not be able to tolerate.
In the same way do not give the soul any mundane things. If you do then you will suffer. There will be tension, depression, and you will be dizzy. Then you will drift very far away and suffer only. Therefore, do not give any bad things.
You have no idea. Like a small baby. He has no idea. He will grab anything, be it an earth worm, stool or clay, and put it in his mouth. He will eat that. He has no brain. We are the same. We have no brain. Therefore, day by day we collect wrong things and suffer.
na kāmaye nātha tad apy ahaṁ kvacin
na yatra yuṣmac-caraṇāmbujāsavaḥ
vidhatsva karṇāyutam eṣa me varaḥ
O Lord, I therefore do not want the boon of liberation, because I get no happiness other than the nectar of the topics of Your lotus feet. I want the boon that I may have millions of ears, so I may be able to listen to the sweetness of Your pastimes from the mouths of Your pure devotees, emanating from deep within their hearts.
Why do I not find Kṛṣṇa’s transcendental glories tasteful? I am not liberated from māyā. I desire to feed my soul, but I am trapped in this māyā. I do not hear hari-kathā from the sādhus. In Caitanya-Bhāgavata (Madhya-khaṇḍa 17.106) it is said:
āgre haya mukti, tabe sarva-bandha-nāśa
tabe se haite pāre śrī-kṛṣṇera dāsa
First one gets mukti, then his material bondage is finished; then he can become the servant of Śrī Kṛṣṇa.
First, we must be liberated from māyā. Moha and mundane affection and attraction are very strong. But an intelligent person with strength will accept only things related to bhakti-yoga. They avoid any other form of śravaṇa and kīrtana; they will not listen to other peoples’ glories. They will be very strong.
Śrī Rūpa Gosvāmī and Sanātana Gosvāmī and all the Six Gosvāmīs had a very strong mood like this.
Mahāprabhu once said:
grāmya-kathā nā śunibe, grāmya-vārtā nā kahibe
bhāla nā khāibe āra bhāla nā paribe
amānī mānada hañā kṛṣṇa-nāma sadā la’be
vraje rādhā-kṛṣṇa-sevā mānase karibe
Caitanya-caritāmṛta, Madhya-līlā 6.236-7
Do not talk like ordinary people or hear their talks. You should not eat nice palatable food, nor should you dress in very nice clothing. Do not demand respect, but offer all respect to others. Always chant the names of Kṛṣṇa, and within your mind serve Rādhā and Kṛṣṇa in Vṛndāvana.
He did not announce this every day. He did not repeat this instruction again and again. He said this only once—that this must be the method of practice. Then the Gosvāmīs accepted this and never neglected it. They followed this instruction seriously. Therefore they very quickly became ātmārāma and received all good qualities. By following the order of Mahāprabhu, Mahaprabhu’s heart melted and that flow came to them.
Mada kṛṣṇa guṇa gane—mada means pride, abhimāna. Abhimānam śūrāpānam, gaurava śuddha raurava, pratiṣṭhāśā śukarera viṣṭhā sarvam tyajam harim bhajet. False pride is intoxicating. It is a big problem. Pride makes us intoxicated to an extent that we cannot leave.
If one has a lot of ahaṅkāra then God is very far away. Pride is like a big hill and it keeps us far away from Keśava. First we must make relation with bhaktas; their guṇa–gaṇa is helpful for us. Then, if we have relation with them, because they have relation with Kṛṣṇa, automatically we will start to do glorification of Kṛṣṇa. Then we will be ekāntika.
Gajendra the elephant prayed:
ekāntino yasya na kañcanārthaṁ
vāñchanti ye vai bhagavat-prapannāḥ
aty-adbhutaṁ tac-caritaṁ sumaṅgalaṁ
One-pointed devotees, who have no desire other than to serve Kṛṣṇa worship Him in a mood of full surrender and always hear and chant about His pastimes, which are most astonishing and auspicious. Thus they always dive in an ocean of transcendental bliss.
“O my dear Lord, I have forgotten You. I am very proud of my big body. I am careless and I never sing or hear Your glories. I do not associate with sādhus. I am praying to You, for You have now made me niṣkiñcana, akiñcana, ekāntika, and always desirous to hear Your glories.”
Narottama dāsa Ṭhākura says that pride is the only obstacle for bhakti–sādhana. Therefore the sādhaka must always surround himself and stay in the company of bhaktas. They will protect him with their advice, instructions, and inspiration. This must be our protective area. Then enemies will not come. There will be no time to give them. We will be engaged twenty-four hours of the day. Then they will not come.
Srila Narottama das Thakura ki Jaya! (Excerpted from a Bhaktabandhav book publication, “Sri Sri Prema Bhakti Candrika”. Available from [email protected] )