Kiśora Kṛṣṇa dresses in an enchanting way that surprises all the Vrajavāsīs. Yaśodā Mātā and Rohiṇī Mātā dress Kṛṣṇa, and then Kṛṣṇa goes to the forest. As Kṛṣṇa walks step by step, on both sides many mothers are waiting with flower garlands, flower earrings, necklaces, bracelets, and flower crowns. As Kṛṣṇa goes step by step, all the Vrajavāsīs offer these to Kṛṣṇa. They know to not make the same thing daily; they always offer something unique, as it is inspired in their heart. This devotionally novel type of dress is very attractive. Brahmā, Indra, Shiva and the demigods watch Kṛṣṇa’s form and think of that without cessation.
When they next see Kṛṣṇa in the evening, His mood, face, smile, and decoration new and unique, they become surprised, “I never saw Him look like this before.”
The mothers think, “He went to the forest and then returned. Is this my Kṛṣṇa or another?” One mother goes very near with a light—a ghee lamp—to inspect Kṛṣṇa. She thought, “Kṛṣṇa’s face is covered with some dust from the jungle; some coating is there.” She goes nearby to see. The sakhās paste many minerals and decorate Kṛṣṇa’s body with these. This decoration isn’t washed off easily. They decorate Kṛṣṇa with heartfelt love, and, by that, it becomes as if permanent. For example: A sugar cane is full of sweetness, but all trees don’t have this sweet juice. A date tree is hard, but at the top of the tree, many litres of sweet gur come out. All the Vrajavāsīs drink the nectar of Kṛṣṇa’s beauty and sweetness, and they attain great energy. Is Kṛṣṇa’s energy diminished by this? No.
How can this be explained with words and sentences? This mood cannot be expressed. Bilvamaṅgala Ṭhākura says, “This kiśora-mohana-mūrti of Kṛṣṇa cannot be fully described. But seeing His eternal pastimes in my heart, I speak something only for the happiness of Kṛṣṇa and the Vraja-devīs.”
Kṛṣṇa is nearby and hearing of His own form. Why is He happy? Kṛṣṇa knows that His devotees feel great bliss hearing of His beautiful form, and therefore He also feels joy .Kṛṣṇa’s different svarūpas have many different names. Guṇa Mañjarī watches Him and gives the name Rādhā-ramaṇa. Lavaṅga Mañjarī says, “No, He is Madana-mohana.” Then another says, “No, no, He is Rāsabihārī.”
At the same time, in the same place, devotees see Kṛṣṇa and have a relationship with a different form of Kṛṣṇa. Kṛṣṇa’s svarūpa reflects in their hearts, and they then address Him with different names. All the Vraja-devīs have names for Kṛṣṇa, according to their mood. These are Kṛṣṇa’s attractive dresses and form.
“When will I see Kṛṣṇa again in this life?” They think this. Then a little later another svarūpa is in front of them. Do they forget the previous one? No. Therefore Kṛṣṇa has many svarūpas. In many temples and many groups, all group leaders, yūtheśvarīs, arrange many programs.
But Kṛṣṇa is the same, He is not different. According to the devotees’ own heartfelt love, they feel some difference and see some speciality in their beloved form of Kṛṣṇa in their heart. Those of meager intelligence cannot understand this. How is His forehead, face, and teeth? How does He smile? How is He dressed? Sometimes the sakhīs give Kṛṣṇa a big mirror to see Himself, saying, “Kṛṣṇa, just see your face.” What does Kṛṣṇa see? How many people are present, hidden within His heart. Many people see Kṛṣṇa and give Him a seat in their heart. Then where are they? Nearby to Kṛṣṇa.
Kṛṣṇa looks in the mirror, “How many are close to Me? How many hearts have a place for Me?” He sees thousands and millions. This is called kaivalya-prayojanam. Kaivalya means only Kṛṣṇa and the Vraja-devīs. Śakti śaktimator abheda. They are not distant or different to each other.
The māyāvādīs say the jīva and brahman are non-different. They say like this, but when is it actually true? When the jīva’s heart has a seat only for Parabrahma and when Parabrahma has a seat in His heart for His beloved devotee, then they become one at heart.
agre samagrayati kām api keli-lakṣmīm
anyāsu dikṣv api vilocanam eva sākṣi
hā hanta hasta-patha-dūram aho kim etad
āśā-kiśoramayam amba jagat-trayaṁ me
Oh, what an indescribable sportive beauty Kṛṣṇa has fully revealed before me! In all directions my eyes witness this beauty. But alas, alas, He is beyond my grasp! O divine mother, the three worlds are filled with my longed-for youth, Kṛṣṇa!
Mahā Lakṣmī is a gold line on the heart of Nārāyaṇa, as oṁkāra. One Lakṣmī is near Lord Nārāyaṇa. But many Lakṣmis are near Kṛṣṇa. They are called gopīs. They are very secret. How do they hide in the corners of Kṛṣṇa’s heart? The Vedas, Vedānta, and Upaniṣads cannot fully understand Kṛṣṇa, what to speak of the millions of ordinary souls.
The sakhīs are Kṛṣṇa’s beauty. Like in a tree—how many wonderful fragrances and colors can be found? Who can understand? When the tree blossoms it becomes decorated with the flowers’ beauty. The flowers are filled with nectar, dripping to the ground, and when the flowers fall to the ground, they are replaced by sweet fruits. Kṛṣṇa is with His near and dearest, very close companions, the Vraja-devīs, gopīs. He has a relationship with them. They are not distant to Kṛṣṇa, and Kṛṣṇa is not distant to them.
Bilvamaṅgala Ṭhākura becomes astonished and feels, “Oh, how can I express this? Anywhere I look, prāṇanātha Kiśora Kṛṣṇa is present with a smiling face.”One sakhī addresses another, “When will I go near Kṛṣṇa? Kṛṣṇa is very far away. All others are qualified, but I am unqualified.”
Kṛṣṇa’s curly hair is surrounding His face like bumblebees. This sometimes covers His forehead and eyes, and comes from both sides to the front. Why does it come forward and cover Kṛṣṇa’s face? The curly hair wants to kiss Kṛṣṇa. The gopīs watch from a distance and feel great jealousy towards Kṛṣṇa’s hair, seeing the hair to be like their step-wives kissing Kṛṣṇa’s face. Some gopīs say, “Let us go bind Kṛṣṇa’s hair up in a turban and place a peacock feather on top, and then Kṛṣṇa’s face will be free of hair.”
Then another sakhī says, “No, this is not good. Speak sweetly, then your mind will be pure. I would go and take a fan, and by gently fanning Kṛṣṇa, all His hair would go to both sides. Why do you want to tie and bind His hair? That is not good. Our hair and the hair of others is dead, but Kṛṣṇa’s hair? Don’t you know what that is? His hairs grow on His head to drink madhura-rasa. Like a farmer plants seeds in a field, then many things grow. Now the hairs grow on Kṛṣṇa’s head to cool Him; to massage Him and kiss Him, and to protect him from the Sun. They are not just ordinary, inert hairs.”
Another gopī says, “Yes, this is true. Now it is the same as before; it doesn’t grow more. Normally, hair grows and is then cut, but Kṛṣṇa’s hair remains the same. And His hairs are very enthusiastic—sometimes crooked, curly; then in rolls, or open; sometimes they go up, or down—and they move from one side to another.”
One gopī says, “Kṛṣṇa’s hairs are like bumblebees.” Bumblebees come flying with wings outstretched and alight on a flower. Then their wings fold, and they appear like a black ball. Afterwards, when the bumblebee flies off, his wings come out, and with a whirring sound he takes flight. The gopī says, “Kṛṣṇa’s hair is very nice. When He runs, His hair flies out on both sides like wings.”
Does Kṛṣṇa’s hair ever fall out? Does one strand ever leave Kṛṣṇa and fall down? This is never possible. If anyone ever has a relationship with Kṛṣṇa, they can never leave Him. Our hair falls. Why? We have no real relation with it. Our hair is dead and dirty, but Kṛṣṇa’s hair is not like that. Don’t think that. Nothing in Vraja ever leaves Kṛṣṇa. If anyone has a relationship with Kṛṣṇa, not only in this world, in any world, they will never leave Kṛṣṇa. Rather, they will have an eternal, ever-increasing service tendency.
Srila Bilvamangala Thakur ki Jaya! (Excerpted from the Bhaktabandhav book publication, “Krsna Karnamrta”. Available from: firstname.lastname@example.org )