Pasankusa Ekadasi

Ekadasi-devi glorified Siva Thakura, and then he forgave Parvati. Ekadasi-devi said, “But, you must also accept her. Otherwise you will not be protected.”

A devotee comes to Guru and Vaisnavas by his great fortune, but on committing offenses, he leaves their association and suffers. But, how can he come back?

Many of Prabhupada Sarasvati Thakura’s followers went to babajis after his disappearance. Param Gurudeva went from house to house and brought them back. He said, “Prabhupada is still present.” Krsna stayed in Dvaraka for a century, but the Vraja-devis never forgot Him. They never went anywhere else, or met with anyone else. They did not lose Krsna for even a second. After a hundred years, Krsna returned. Ramacandra neglected Sita-devi in the forest, but in His heart, He never neglected her. Sita-devi was with Ramacandra all the time. Similarly, the Guruvarga takes care of us and thinks about us. They check to see if we follow Gurudeva and bhakti. If we do everything, Ekadasi-devi will arrange everything. There is no other helper in this world. Some people may chastise, punish, or reject us. This is very easy. But, who can forgive and bring people back? Who can bring them close and make a very sweet relationship with them. In this world, who can do this? Only Madhava tithi bhakti janani; Ekadasi-devi is the mother of bhakti. How will bhakti appear in one’s heart? Whoever has bhakti has sakti. You will not be angry, and you will not neglect others. The jivas’ egos are false, and their actions are faulty.

How can we be close to Guru-pada-padma and God? Pasankusa Ekadasi therefore comes, and checks, “Who follows me? Who accepts my treatment? I will remove their problems and help them.” Hence, today is Ekadasi. Soon there will be Sarad Purnima and Kartika vrata, Urja vrata will begin. Be serious during this time. Follow the vrata according to your own eligibility. Be very silent and secret. This is the month of the Vraja-devis. Do not be like a camel or demon. Always chant, remember, and pray, and act under the guidance of the Vaisnavas. Go on parikrama, hear harikatha, do not insult others, and do not listen to other people’s criticism. Always follow in the footsteps of the Vraja-devis. We should pray, “O Ekadasi-devi, O Madhava tithi, O Bhakti janani, please help me. Otherwise, I am collecting anarthas from everywhere, and then I will become as useless as garbage. No flowers or fruits will grow with me. Instead, many worms and germs will come to me.” Pray to Ekadasi-devi, she will soon bless you with the chance to serve the Vraja-devis.


Srila Gurudeva began the 2001 tour in Hawaii and Auckland, New Zealand. Gurudeva also preached in three ctiies of Australia—Murwillumbah, Brisbane, and Perth—where he spoke especially about the first four verses of Upadeśāmṛta. He then went to Bali and Singapore,...

The Appearance Day of Sri Madhvacarya

[Hari-katha inspired by the Guru-varga] The liberated souls appearance and disappearance in this world is to help the living entities. Today is the appearance day of Sri Madhvacarya. We will remember the glories of Sri Madhvacarya. Sri Madhvacarya is the incarnation...

Fresh Nectar – Govinda-lilamrta

First, Kavirāja Gosvāmī gave this Caitanya-caritāmṛta, so that common sense, consciousness, could come. After drinking this Caitanya-caritāmṛta, a taste will come for chanting God’s holy names and residing in God’s holy dhāma, and for all programs of bhakti. Then, by chanting nirguṇa harināma, Kṛṣṇa’s rūpa will manifest in the heart. One will understand what is helpful in this world — the dhāma and bona fide Vaiṣṇavas.

All realization will come. Then one will not be cheated by the dramatic cheaters of this world. One will make a relationship with God’s glories, the Vaiṣṇavas and the dhāma. After that, one can understand His svarūpa. Otherwise, mundane rūpas come to us without any invitation and make our hearts polluted. Then we are contaminated. This is called anartha, not paramārtha.

After rūpa appears, guṇa will follow. God has 64 special qualities. The demigods have only fifty-five. The incarnations of God have sixty, and ordinary living entities can have up to fifty. These fifty will come if you are a little clean. . . these qualities come in the heart, one after the other. At that time, others will not be able to catch and keep you nearby. You will be uncontrolled by others and will not be their slave. Willpower will come. When God’s qualities come, willpower will come. Otherwise, one is always pushed down and without help, having no strength.

The Glories of the Holy Name – 09 June 1996

Try to understand one secret behind this pastime. Since millions of lives we have forgotten Krsna and have fruitlessly stayed in this material world. “Go,” means cows, Vedas, the senses, and knowledge. The word – “Go,” has many meanings. A Sanskrit word doesn’t have only one meaning. The word has many meanings; the word can have even fifteen to twenty meanings according to the specific context. So, in this regard, Go means the cows and senses. Our senses are compared to the cows. Krsna is there in our heart as a friend. This has been told in the Vedas. If someone wants to perform something bad, then a voice from the inside will say, “Don’t do this.” This voice will warn you every time you want to do something bad. Who says this? That Friend of ours says this. He is the witness to our happiness and misery. He observes all our actions. But, He doesn’t taste the fruits of our actions; He is only the witness. But we think, “I am the taster of the fruits of my actions.” We do karma, to taste the fruits. Therefore, we suffer.

So, the witness to the jivatma’s actions is Krsna. Our senses are like the cows. Without Krsna’s permission, the cows went to eat the grass. Similarly, we search for happiness like the cows searching for green grass. You study and become qualified. You search for a job or start a business. You earn much money, but think, “O brother, I don’t have a wife. I want to marry a beautiful lady. I will become happy by this.” But after getting married, your wife is unable to beget a son. You are in a great dilemma now. After great difficulty a son is born. But the son is a great trouble-maker. He doesn’t listen to anyone. He leaves you after getting married. He then lives comfortably with his wife and children. While your wife and yourself suffer greatly in his separation. In the same way, we intently search for happiness and make much effort. But at the end of our lives, we realize, “I didn’t attain any happiness.” Ask your father, grand-father, or your great grand-father if they were ever happy in their lives.

Why Did Śrila Rupa Goswami And The Other Gosvāmīs Weep?

“The gopīs are like this. They want to die, but at the next moment they remember Kṛṣṇa’s words: ‘I will come back.’ The gopīs, or any devotees who weep bitterly for the Lord, also laugh sometimes because they perceive that their Lord has come. But this cruel master will never come because his love and affection has stopped. The love of the cruel master is mundane, but the love and affection of Lord Kṛṣṇa is transcendental. Kṛṣṇa may come and satisfy His devotees, saying, ‘I have come;’ but the cruel masters of this world
will never return.

“This world is meant for our learning; is like a school or college. We can learn many things from this world—by examples such as this one about the abandoned dog. Today I was realizing why the gopīs lament and weep so much—and why they sing. We should realize these topics, but we cannot do so by speculation of the mind. Such realization is possible only by the association of high-class devotees of the Lord.

“That dog will die one day, and his cruel master will not return. But Lord Kṛṣṇa is always controlled by the love of His devotees, and they cannot die. When they weep like this they become mad—and from me to me Lord Kṛṣṇa comes and pacifies them. But they will say they have seen Him only in a dream. They will consider, ‘Perhaps I was mad and that is why I thought I saw Him; but I have not really seen Him.’ Actually they have seen Him and this increases their love for Kṛṣṇa.

“Lord Kṛṣṇa’s cowherd friend Madhumaṅgala wept bitterly, as did Mādhavendra Purīpāda. He prayed, ‘O Lord of Mathurā, O beloved, when will I see You? I am dying, so please come and give me Your darśana.’

“Śrīmatī Rādhikā, the crest-jewel of the gopīs, prays:

hā nātha ramaṇa preṣṭha kvāsi kvāsi mahā-bhuja

dāsyās te kṛpaṇāyā me sakhe darśaya sannidhim

Śrīmad-Bhāgavatam 10.30.39

‘O master, O My lover! O dearmost, where are You? Where are You? Please, O mighty-armed one, O friend, show Yourself to Me, Your wretched maidservant!’

“The gopīs all weep in this way. The cruel master will also die, but Kṛṣṇa and His devotees will never die. One day Kṛṣṇa is bound to give His darśana and service. We should be like those gopīs and the other associates of Vrajendra-nandana Kṛṣṇa.”

Atop a Kadamba – Govinda-lilamrta

The Vraja-devīs go to Yāvaṭa in the early morning and serve Śrīmatī Rādhārānī. After Her bath and dressing is complete, Jaṭilā, Kutila, Abhimanyu and everyone becomes astonished and cannot recognize who this Devī is. They offer praṇāma to the Devī and pray for Her blessings. Śrīmatī Rādhārānī then proceeds to Nanda-bhavana, accompanied by the sakhīs, who are singing and dancing. Viśākhā Devī sees Rādhārānī’s eyes are restless, searching for something. “Where is the blue-colored moon?”

Śrīmatī Rādhārānī is very greedy to see the face of Śrī Kṛṣṇa. She looks with restless eyes, “Where is He?”

When Śuka goes to any garden, he doesn’t look at the leaves, flowers and fruits, but he smells from one place, “Where are the sweet, ripe and juicy fruits?” He goes and drinks the fruits’ juice and then runs off.

Today, Viśākhā Devī was waiting and watching, “Where are the fruits in this garden?”

The mañjarīs decorated the pathway very nicely. The sakhīs walked with Śrīmatī Rādhārānī, singing sweetly. This is like a rasa. Kṛṣṇa is very greedy to drink this. But where is He? How can they meet with Him? How can they see Him? They have this strong desire.

Rādhārānī’s hands have many bangles, and She wears many flower garlands and ornaments with gold, pearls, and jewels such as diamonds. Viśākhā gives Śrīmatī Rādhārānī a blue-colored jewel, nīlamaṇi. This is very powerful. This jewel has the special ability to show the activities of Kṛṣṇa on its sparkling surface. The blue jewel shows where Kṛṣṇa is, what He is doing, and so forth. Nothing else will reflect there. Kṛṣṇa gave this as a gift to Śrīmatī Rādhārānī. Viśākhā Devī puts this on the necklace worn by Śrīmatī Rādhārānī. When watching this, Śrīmatī becomes very happy, understanding where Kṛṣṇa is present.

Kṛṣṇa has finished milking the cows, and the milk is on its way to Nanda-bhavana. Now, Kṛṣṇa has disappeared and is sitting on top of the branches of a kadamba tree, watching the gopīs coming from a far way off. No one can see Him, where He is hiding. The sakhās search for Him, without any luck. But the sakhīs understand where He is by the power of Rādhārānī’s blue jewel, and they come nearby this Kadamba Tera. Upon arriving, Rādhārānī appears to be very exhausted and sits under the kadamba tree. The sakhīs begin to sing Govinda-gītā.


Śrīla Gurudeva then described how Kṛṣṇa established Ugrasena Mahārāja as king. Then he said, “Nanda Baba was waiting at his camp outside the city and weeping, thinking, ‘When will Kṛṣṇa and Balarāma come back to me? They have not yet come.’ Finally, on the next night, Kṛṣṇa and Balarāma came back to Nanda Baba. Embracing Them, he took Them both on his lap and began speaking to them with great affection. ‘Oh, I have been waiting so long for You.’ Kṛṣṇa is very tricky. When He was with Devaki and Vasudeva, He had told them, ‘I am your son,’ and when He was with Nanda Baba He said, ‘O Father, I am definitely your son.’ As Kṛṣṇa and Balarāma sat on the lap of Nanda Baba, Kṛṣṇa said, ‘Father, Vasudeva and Devaki are saying to Me, “You are our son. You are our son.” And all the Mathurāvāsīs are saying likewise. I wanted to come to you earlier, but all the residents of Mathurā obstructed Me from coming to meet you.’

“Balarāma said, ‘Listen, Father, those parents who give up their baby cannot be called real parents. Rather, those persons who look after the child, like the eyelids protect the eyes, are the real parents. One who merely gives birth is not the real parent, but one who protects and nourishes like a parent is the real parent. You are certainly My real father, and Yaśodā is My real mother.’

In the course of the conversation, Nanda Baba said, ‘What do You want? What is Your decision?’

“‘You were saying that I should stay here in Mathurā alone, without Kṛṣṇa, but that is completely impossible,’ Balarāma replied. ‘Even if Lord Brahmā, the creator of the universe, comes to Me thousands of times with the instruction, “Be without Kṛṣṇa. Be without Kṛṣṇa,” I cannot be without Him.’ Nanda Baba never thought of Kṛṣṇa as the son of Vasudeva and Devakī. He was thinking, ‘No one will ever criticize me for taking my own son away from here. However, if I take Balarāma as well, I will be considered very selfish for taking Vasudeva and Rohiṇī’s son. I will be considered very unfair.’”

At this point in his lecture, Śrīla Gurudeva requested one of his disciples to lead a kīrtana in relation to the Vrajavāsīs’ separation: tuhū se rohili madhupūra.

After the kīrtana, before a tearful audience, Śrīla Gurudeva continued, “The essence of this pastime is very difficult to understand, and its most confidential. Externally, Śrīmad-Bhāgavatam describes that after hearing the arguments of Kṛṣṇa and Balarāma, Nanda Baba was pacified by them. They gave him many of their golden ornaments, and Nanda Baba, with tears of affection in his eyes, returned to Vṛndāvana. But how could this have possibly happened? Did Nanda Baba sell Kṛṣṇa and Balarāma? Did he travel all the way from Vraja to Mathurā to collect wealth? This is quite impossible, because prema, pure devotion, never takes— always gives. Therefore, the hidden meaning of the Śrīmad-Bhāgavatam statements, as revealed to us in the commentary of Śrīla Viśvanātha Cakravartī Ṭhākura, should also be understood. “Kṛṣṇa had promised at the time of going with Akrūra from Vṛndāvana to Mathurā that He would definitely return. Śrī Kṛṣṇa is satya-saṅkalpa; He always speaks the truth. However, we cannot see any dire evidence in Śrīmad-Bhāgavatam that Kṛṣṇa did indeed return to Vṛndāvana. We hear that Balarāma returned for two months, but we don’t hear that
Śrī Kṛṣṇa ever returned. Śrīmad-Bhāgavatam describes that many years later, at the me of the solar eclipse, Kṛṣṇa went to Kurukṣetra with His 16,108 queens, and He met the Vrajavāsīs there. The Bhāgavatam describes only that Śrī Kṛṣṇa went back to Vṛndāvana by being carried in the minds of the vraja-gopīs, but not that He Himself directly returned.
So, was Kṛṣṇa’s promise broken? There is a Padma-Purāṇa reference, which we accept as true, which states that after Kṛṣṇa killed Dantavakra, when there were no more enemies of Kṛṣṇa left on the Earth planet, Kṛṣṇa took all the Vrajavāsīs back to Goloka Vṛndāvana, but that He simultaneously stayed on Earth in His form as Dvārakādīśa-Kṛṣṇa, the Lord of Dvārakā. But this Padma-Purāṇa reference does not prove Kṛṣṇa’s words true—that He honored His promise—because it does not say that He personally returned to Vraja. Therefore the question remains: was Kṛṣṇa’s promise broken?
“How are we to reconcile this? Kṛṣṇa is the Supreme Lord. Everything is possible for Him. He performs all His pastimes under the dire shelter of His Yogamāyā potency, His transcendental spiritual deluding potency. How should we understand this pastime? What the Bhāgavatam describes must be true—that Kṛṣṇa and Balarāma came at night to meet Nanda Baba, who, after conversations with Them, took the golden ornaments from Them, and, weeping and weeping, returned alone to Vraja, leaving Kṛṣṇa and Balarāma in Mathurā. “But Kṛṣṇa and Balarāma each manifested two forms, and thus there were two prakosts, or chambers, of Their pastimes. Like two different rooms in a house, there were two different sections of Their pastimes. In another prakost, another section or manifestation of Their pastimes, They accompanied Nanda Baba back to Vṛndāvana on the bullock cart, in great ecstasy. “Two manifestations were in play at that time; that is how we understand this pastime. Both these pastimes happened simultaneously. In this way, Śrīla Viśvanātha Cakravartī Ṭhākura has reconciled the apparent inconsistency. “In truth, Kṛṣṇa cannot give up Vṛndāvana for even a moment, as it is said in śāstra: vṛndāvanam parityajya padam ekam na gacchati. He never takes one step out of Vṛndāvana; He is always there. This being so, who went to Mathurā and Dvārakā? In one prakoṣṭa—as Vasudeva-nandana—Kṛṣṇa went there; Vrajendra-nandana Śrī Kṛṣṇa did not go. “Here is another, very important point which supports Śrīla Viśvanātha Cakravartī Ṭhākura’s explanations: When Kṛṣṇa instructed Uddhava to go to Vṛndāvana to console Nanda Baba, Mother Yaśodā, and the gopīs, Uddhava asked Him, ‘How can I live without You? I cannot live without You.’ Kṛṣṇa replied, ‘I am partly here in Mathurā, but I am always fully in Vṛndāvana.’ When Uddhava entered Vṛndāvana, he saw some bulls fighting over some cows; and he saw that the gopīs had burnt ghee lamps emanating a very beautiful fragrance. He saw Kṛṣṇa herding the cows, and he saw that the cows’ hooves had kicked up the Vṛndāvana dust which now covered his golden chariot. It was as if Kṛṣṇa was fully there in Vṛndāvana. “Thus, in one pastime manifestation Nanda Baba returned to Vraja alone and weeping, and in another, overjoyed, he returned to Vraja with Kṛṣṇa and Balarāma. In this way, Śrīla Viśvanātha Cakravartī Ṭhākura has reconciled the apparent contradictions and revealed the hidden pastimes.

The Appearance of Srila Bhakti Promoda Puri Gosvami Maharaja

Today is the appearance day of Nitya Lila Pravista Om Visnupada Astottara Sata Sri Srimad Bhakti Pramoda Puri Gosvami Maharaja. Both, the appearance day and the disappearance day of the Vaisnavas are helpful. If we remember the Vaisnava on his appearance day and pray to him, then holding our hands, he will teach us everything. After his disappearance, he is present in the eternal world. If we pray to him, remember him, and worship him, then he will shower his mercy and blessings from the eternal world. These blessings are more powerful and tasteful. Thus, the appearance and disappearance day of the Vaisnava is very good.

On his appearance day, the Vaisnava came to this world. Vaisnavas don’t have their own choice or desires. God Himself or His Svarupa-sakti send the Vaisnava to this world. Mahaprabhu or His followers also send the Vaisnava to this world to help and change the jivas. As all of you previously heard, Srila Puri Gosvami Maharaja appeared in a Brahmin family. During Srila Prabhupada Sarasvati Thakura’s time, the daily Nadia Prakash was published. It carried the news of Vaikuntha—Vaikunthiya-varta. This Dainika Nadia Prakash was printed and distributed everyday. Fortnightly or monthly periodicals were also published. They were not only published in Hindi and Bengali. They were published in Odiya, Tamil, English, and many other languages. Srila Prabhupada had this transcendental literature distributed everywhere in the world. If anyone accepted this message, they would go near Prabhupada and meet him. Thus, they would directly receive their own permanent soul’s service and position.

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